Total Shutdown Of The Brain
July went by awfully fast, didn’t it? It came so fast, I almost forgot to pay the rent on the first. If I hadn’t been watching the news and saw that it was the first, I probably would have forgot. It sort of snuck up on me. Maybe I’m just wishing for the days to slow down, as I move toward graduation in September. Part of me wants to get school over with, another part doesn’t want it to be over.
July wasn’t a very eventful month, as you could probably tell by my almost lack of posts here last month. I’m afraid August may not be very different. I’ve been so busy and backed up with stuff that I’m wearing myself out. A weird thing about me is when I’m tired I can’t sleep at night. When I’m not stressed out and I’m rested, I get wonderful nights of sleep. I can’t seem to figure that one out.
July was also a very hot month, our electric bill was the highest it’s ever been. It seemed like the instant we’d turn the air conditioner off it would just get sweltering hot in the apartment. The humidity has been just unbearable this summer, it hasn’t really gotten over 90 much but it’s just been more humid than one can take.
Hmm… not much to talk about. My brain has really shut down here. Let’s see, oh maybe I’ll talk about my classes. They’ve been going well, not the best. Because i’ve had such a heavy workload, I’m afraid the quality of my work hasn’t been so great. I’m taking more classes than usual this quarter, one being Physics, so it’s really been a nightmare. I was always just awful at Sciences, and this Physics course is taking up so much of my time it’s crazy. All the math and researching through a textbook that makes the subject as boring as possible makes it incredibly difficult. My avoidance of science classes in high school doesn’t help either. I took the bare minimum of what’s required for science when I was in high school. I wasn’t a big fan of regular math either, but I took all those classes anyway. I liked the teacher I guess, he was also my track coach and he was a good teacher. My science instructors on the other hand, one was semi-nice but had really high expectations, the other was not nice to me at all and just wouldn’t work with me. If it wasn’t for that jerk, maybe I would have actually given Science a try and wouldn’t be in this position right now, spending hours upon hours on few Physics questions.
I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting back on things lately. For the last three years my mind has been pretty focused on what’s going on in my life right now and what my goals are, which is exactly where my mind should be. In the past I was always such a daydreamer and I’d dream a lot at night. That’s been coming back to me lately and I’m not sure why. I actually am keeping two journals now, this “public one” and a “private” one. Maybe jotting it all down at night will get it out of my system, and I can stay focused. I’ve tried starting journals in the past, but wasn’t able to stick it out. Then of course I started doing this public one, and now that I’ve been able to keep doing this 2-5 times a month, I should be able to do a private entry 3-5 times a week. So far I’ve written in it every day, so I’m doing okay for now. My first entry had to be kind of a catch up, I sat and wrote about pretty much everything I could remember from the first 21 years of my life. I stayed up all night doing it. I sat in bed on my laptop typing away, expecting to just write for an hour or so, but then I looked over at the window and the sun was coming up. I probably wouldn’t have been able to sleep that night anyway.
But since I don’t really have anything overly interesting to talk about, and I’m just basically rambling now, I’m going to give up on this for today. I’ll keep up writing here. It started out as just a way to tell people what’s new on the site, and somehow I’ve just kind of turned this into my little connection to everyone who seems to know me somehow. I’ll try not to bore you, I’ll try to keep this little life of mine interesting.
See you next time! And stay cool, it’s awfully hot out there.
Update, 5:07 PM - I’ve updated the top 40 music list, didn’t have a lot of time to do it as I’m busy working on a school project today that I need to have done Monday. Sorry about any mistakes on the Top 40.