Forced Into The Middle

I’ve been so tired of staring at computer screens lately that I just don’t even want to look at the computer when I’m at home. That’s my excuse for not writing on here much lately, of course. I’m sure you understand, it’s summer and the weather has been really beautiful the past few weeks. My computer strike has led to me becoming a bit of a busy-body and a neat freak, I’m constantly cleaning everything and I’m actually keeping up with the laundry. I didn’t expect that to happen.

I’ve made some quick little over-the-weekend trips up North, went camping, and that’s been really great for me. It’s good to get out of the city, it’s refreshing in a number of ways. Seems like it doesn’t take long for me to get stressed out once I’m back here, though. Driving back into town recently I instantly found myself getting really impatient with the slightest traffic conjestion. Hours earlier up North, I was stuck behind Farmer Joe going 5mph in a 20mph zone and for some odd reason, it didn’t bother me at all.

I feel like I’ve been a little closed-minded and antisocial lately, but that’s because I’m trying so hard to stay out of other people’s drama. But it seems like the harder I’ve tried to stay out of things, the more I’ve been getting sucked into the middle of what I’d rather have nothing to do with. It’s a long story. The short/generic/anonymous version goes like this… Two good friends of mine are at odds with each-other over some girl who isn’t really worth all that much fuss in the first place. Typical, I know. Hopefully they’ll come to their senses and will also have enough respect for me not to force me into the middle of their little tizzy.

The fact is I just really don’t want anything to do with it and don’t even want to hear about it, you know? I have my own problems to deal with. But you know how the story always ends up, I’ll get sucked into the middle of it and I’ll be asked to pick a side. There’s never any way for me to just be neutral. The finger always has to be pointed somewhere. I struggle with that every day.

Hopefully they’ll let me just enjoy my summer. Now get me away from this computer screen! See-you again soon…